Thursday, February 15, 2018

Ruby Beach

Looking out the window at the Pacific Ocean this morning and thinking with mixed emotions, I’m 28! This year I’ve taken a strong interest in personal growth and awareness. The world can really beat up on sensitive people. Each year stronger, each year wiser, each year better at puns.

This year's birthday adventure took me to Ruby Beach with lovely Vimala. She didn't hesitate when I proposed the idea of hiking around in long dresses. We had the beach to ourselves~

Monday, December 25, 2017

Winter Glow

Feeling okay about 2017 coming to an end. It's okay to say it was a sad year, and it's fair to say a new year doesn't necessarily make it feel better. But, 2018 feels like a new starting point at the very least.

I'm grateful for my vintage shop this year, a place to focus my creative energy in a void. And a hobby that built my savings up considerably this year.

It's weird feeling comfortable in my finances, and thinking you could buy anything you want! But also thinking I really don't need anything. I don't need clothing, I don't need more house goods. Those are little things though. Bigger purchases are more abstract, a trip? Another house? Dental work? These are harder for me to plan for. Maybe I could use one or two of those. I'm 28 in 2018. Old enough to know better, young enough to feel in the dark.

Snow for Christmas, I'm not a Christmas person - but i enjoy a day off and winder lights. I treated myself to a prism lens and more diffraction glasses to play with.

Monday, September 25, 2017

Northern State Mental Hospital

The ruins of Northern State Mental Hospital, what beauty and magic. This was my first visit as it's a bit further north than I normally travel, one of the best spots yet! This was once a thriving mini city with a lumber mill, quarry, steam plant, greenhouse, canning facilities, library, bakery, dairy, and 700-acre farm for growing vegetables and raising livestock. Opened as an overflow facility for Western State Mental Hospital in 1909, by the 1970s the hospital lost it's funding and closed. Now it is called the Northern State "Recreation Area." There are many well established trails around the property with the remaining buildings on full display. I was excited to see so much access to these derelict structures, climb and explore until your heart is content.

For being an abandoned mental hospital, i found the ruins peaceful, not eerie. There was beauty all around, nature reclaiming all, and the landscape was magnificent. I was dressed for a retirement party earlier in the day, so after grabbing Selena, i just slipped into some tennies and went!

I plan for a living. I organize so many details from day to day. So when I have time on the weekend, I'm now getting a kick out of not planing at all. I'm good at impulsive decision making (well, part tortured and prolonged decision making that will eventually turn into a quick last-minute resolution). I'm also tired of being the planner among friends. I tend to be the one who takes initiative when an idea is being tossed around and organize the date and meeting spot. It's exhausting, and I'm tired of it - so more spontaneous is the game now.

Sunday, September 3, 2017

Snoqualmie River in September

Baby it's hot out there. Suns out buns out. September Snoqualmie River through the toy holga lens again. The water was low, slow, and warm (as far as rivers go).

Sunday, August 6, 2017

Longbranch a Holga Lens and a Heat Wave

Holding a close friends new baby, I commented we had the same skin tone. But, this is a two-month-old new life who has been lovingly kept away from direct sunlight. Me? Welp, it's that kind of summer.

A heat wave through Western Washington is keeping me in the shade, and honestly a bit sluggish. Too hot to move.

I've spent the past couple of months organizing. Going through closets and drawers, sorting keepers from donations. It feels good to know what's behind the can of black beans in the cupboard, and that the "junk drawer" actually has some useful important stuff. It started as a cleansing exercise, when you're surrounded in negative news, having a clean house makes a difference. And over the past few weeks my projects turned to making room for another person. The second bedroom (former "stuff!" room) will soon be inhabited by a friend. My first roommate in years!

So much of this year has felt like the twilight zone. This isn't where I thought I'd be a year ago. I imagined building my relationship, and inevitably thinking about the next house, a house that could be both of ours. So moving on, away from that relationship, and taking on a roommate feels like a step backwards to an extent. There is a beauty to strong friendships though, I'm going in open to growing and making something new with a friend I've known longer than I haven't known. We are both HSP's, passionate long term vegetarians, and aquatic signs. It will be interesting to see how our dynamic will work on an everyday basis.

My biggest fear is not having enough space. I really can spend DAYS by myself and be happy as a clam. Then again, this can be exercise to spend less time alone and be social (something I've put exceptionally little effort into this year).

Due to my months and months of a melted spirit, I haven't been taking many photos the way I used to. So here is a rare moment of thoughtful documentation. I used a toy Holga lens on my SLR. It's like instant film ;)